“You may think you’re getting the short end of the stick but when it’s all said and done, God will make sure that you don’t lose anything truly valuable. Moreover, he will make sure you get your just reward. Your responsibility is to remain calm and peaceful even when those around you are not.” Joel Osteen
When she puts Talia down, she finally comes face to face with me; her gaze meets mine and my demeanor changes. She smiles at me but i don’t smile back, i know it’s strange but i am not excited to see her.
“Fred,” she says
“Mummy! Are you moving back in?” Talia asks
“Yes,” she responds and i shot her a questioning look, like what the hell is going on? But she ignores me and walks over to where Taylor is sitting.
“Baby! How are you? Aren’t you excited to see me?” she asks
Taylor has her eyes on the television she doesn’t even spare Tasha a single glance.
“I don’t want you,” she responds before she rushes over to me and i scoop her in my arms before wrapping her arms around her beck, embracing her.
“Fred? What did you do to my child?” Tasha asks
“You are joking right?” i ask
“Did you turn her against me?”
“You chose a man over your children, you turned your back on them do you expect them to run into your arms just because you are back?”
“We need to talk,” she responds
“Girls, go to your room, your mother and i need to talk.”
I put Taylor down before they run up the stairs to their room. For a moment, silence engulfs us both then Tasha clears her throat and finally breaks the silence.
“What are you doing here?” i ask
“Is that a way to welcome your wife back home?” she asks
“Ex- wife,” i respond.
“You and i know that the divorce isn’t finalized,” she says
“We have both signed the papers and have agreed on the terms and conditions, the only thing left is the court hearing and then we are done, so why are you here?”
“What if i don’t want us to go through with the divorce? What if i regret walking out on you and the children?” She says, inching closer to me stopping only when we are inches away. Her hand reaches out and gently caresses my lips. I push her hand away and angrily look at her.
“What do you think you are doing?”
“Is that a way to treat your wife?” she asks
“Some wife you were,” i respond bitterly
“I know i hurt you deeply but i am really sorry Fred, i miss you a lot, i want to come back home,” she says
For a moment there i don’t respond, i just stare at her as if she is a ghost.
There was a time when i wanted to hear these words from Tasha, there was a time i desperately wanted her back i could have done anything possible to bring her back but not anymore.
I loved Tasha with every bone in my body and every beat in my heart. I loved her with everything i had. Losing her was the most painful experience of my life but i didn’t kill me, it made me stronger.
I have done so well for myself the past months, i am actually in a better place and i won’t go back to what broke me.
“Fred, i miss you a lot please let me come back home, we don’t even have to go through with the divorce,” she pleads.Recommend you to download Topster- Stories App for Exclusive Access To Erotic and Romantic stories
“Why?” i ask
“Because i regret walking out on you, i am really sorry please forgive me,” tears stream down her cheeks.
I won’t buy this, i know Tasha very well, she is a manipulative woman, i am sure she is only back because things didn’t work out with the other man.
“And what happened with Kai? Aren’t you guys expecting your first child?” i ask
She wipes her face with the back of her hand, “I lost my son.”
“I am sorry for your loss.”
“I just want to start all over again with you and the girls, please forgive me,” she grasps my arm. Her other hand reaches out and grabs my chin, lifting my head so our gaze can meet. “Find it in your heart to forgive me please.”
“Tasha? I loved you with as much passion as any man could muster and you walked away. I know our marriage wasn’t perfect but i loved you a lot, i was everything a husband should be but you cheated on me, i begged you to stay and you laughed in face, why are you really back?”
“I know i hurt you, i don’t know what came over me, it was the work of the devil, i am back to my senses please, please, please, forgive me,” she lets go of my hand and gets down on her knees.
“You don’t have to kneel down, i forgave you a long time ago,” i say
She stands up, “Does it mean i can move back in?”
“No! I forgive you but i am not taking you back, we had our time together and it didn’t work out, i am done Tasha, i am so done with you,” i say words that i have been keeping in my mind for weeks.
“What do you mean you are done?” My intestines squeeze up into a knot as i feel the blood rush to my face. I was sure he would take me back, what the hell is going on here?
“I am in a better place, i am fine without you. I am sorry i can’t be around the same person who broke me and caused me pain every single day, being with you will be a reminder of the bruises and wounds of the past, just let me be.”
“Lord what have i done?” My heart begins to race faster than normal, where will i go from here? What will people say about me? I broke my own marriage for someone who doesn’t even give a shit about me.
“Please, i will do anything you ask me to please Fred,” i plead. I never beg, i am not so good at such things but i am desperate, i want my husband and daughters back, i don’t want Fred to find someone else.
“Don’t do this to yourself Tasha, you are still the mother of my children and you will always be a part of my life, pick yourself up and start all over again.”
“Forgive me,” i cry
He is about to say something else when a knock sounds at the door.
“Come in,” he says
Prisca marches into the house, “Fred you won’t believe what i just watched on facebook, Tasha was humiliated by…,” she pauses when she notices me.
“If it isn’t my adorable best friend,” i fake a smile.
“What are you doing here Prisca?” Fred asks
“I came to show you something.”
“And i thought i said i want nothing to do with you, i even told you that i don’t want you to tell me anything about Tasha, why the hell are you back?” he asks
“I am sorry i couldn’t keep the news to myself.”
“Just keep it to yourself from now on,” he responds
She ignores him and looks at me, “What are you doing here?”
“None of your business,” i angrily respond
“Oh, now that things have gone sour between you and Kai, you are here to beg Fred to take you back?”
“Prisca? Haven’t you done enough damage?”
“Oh please, you cheated on your own i didn’t force you to do it.”
“You laid a trap for me.”
“Just leave Tasha,” she says
“Prisca,” Fred begins, “I think you have over stayed your welcome please leave.”
“Yes, leave,” i say
“You are gonna take her back?” she asks
“Just leave,” he responds
“You know i love you Fred, i can treat you better than Tasha, please don’t kick me out.”
“You and Tasha are birds of the same feathers, even if i wanted to find someone else, you are the last person i would think of choosing,” he says
“Leave my house,” he yells, i can see tears running Prisca’s eyes as she grabs her bag and walks towards the door. She is such a bitch did she think Fred would choose her over me?
“Now that she is gone, can we talk about us?” i ask Fred
He shots me a cold look before he says, “Get out of here, i don’t want to have anything to do with you.”
“Fred,” i take a step towards him and i am met with a push from him.
“Leave! i would rather die than allow you back in my life,” he says.
More tears fill my eyes when those words escape his lips, i know i deserve this but that doesn’t help ease the pain. I shouldn’t have fallen into the devil’s hands, i have lost a perfect man and it’s all my fault.
“Fred?” i try one more time but he doesn’t even spare me a single glance.
“Close the door behind your back when you leave,” he says as he turns around and heads towards the stairs.
I slid down to the floor sobbing. I still can’t believe i have lost him for good, my heart is shattered. Lord it hurts.