“for every thing you have done for me I say thank you, if my body is filled up with mouth is not enough to thank you, I can’t take your blessings for granted…everyday i wake up and breath in the air you made, I feel the sunlight and the joy in my heart explode…Lord all i want to say is thank you, you have being so good to me…as i go out today to make enquiries about my school guide my step and order my ways and let your blessings flow…
.I’m undeserving yet you love me anyway, thank you father for your mercy, please lord, help me to be able to control my feelings towards Victor, he practically takes my breath away, sometimes i wonder if it is normal, I don’t know if this is your will but i believe your plan and purpose for me is to give me a bright future and expected joyful end, let your will forever be done…
i will never question you if you have other plans outside Victor because i know your plan for me is the best, please keep protecting my people at home and may your name forever be praise….Amen”
I woke up very early that morning and decided to pray on my own before the general morning devotion commence, I spoke to God and handed everything about me to him, before i set out for the day,
after morning devotion I left, It was Wednesday my off day, I told Joe where i was going and he asked if i can wait for him to refresh so that he can drop me off at the bustop since he will also be going out later, I told him not to worry i will take the public bus
Joe was a nice person, I could say he was God sent to me to help me, he was humble and very understanding…he has being with this household for years that big mummy got him a fine car, but that was before i started working for them,
I don’t know names of cars but Joe’s car is small, very comfortable and fine too, he deserves it because he has being a diligent worker, he was always extra nice to me, yesterday while we were gisting as usual he told me how much he likes and respects my person, he wanted to say something else but stop in the middle, I just hugged him and told him how much of a great guy he was,
I felt he was having feeling but can’t say it out, but the feeling he has is not mutual because the only person i have feelings for is Victor, but i know God will send a nice lady to him because he deserves it.
Well, I left and went to wait for bus at the bustop, while waiting a car stopped in front of me it was Kala, he parked well and came down
he walked up to me and asked me where i was going to he wants to give me an innocent ride, I wasn’t scared and didn’t reply him as he kept on talking
“I’m sorry Uju for everything, i was very angry after you left, I know what i demanded of you was uncalled for, I wasn’t suppose to ask such because i help and accommodated you, and I’m really sorry of what happened at the house…
you know i have always liked you right from when you were working at the club, and it was because of that i accept to house you, but you leaving like that without even a note or call was bad…
“Kala, I’m grateful to you for housing me but i would have showed more appreciation if you have not demanded for s£x as payment, still coming to threaten me again, if i haven’t said my thanks before I’m saying it now…thank you.
I really appreciate. And thank you for trying to give me a lift but i can’t get into your car, ones beaten twice shy, I’m fine Kala..
“Uju, are you still angry with me ..I think i have said sorry na, I want to drop you anywhere you are going, let me be your driver…
“no, thanks ..I’m not going, stop insisting because is of no use, but I’m cool I don’t have anything against you but i will rather trek than to be in your car, no bad feeling though, I’m going with the public transport…thank you…
“then i will drag you into my car and there’s nothing you will do, you are helpless here, no Victor, no securities no CCTV, just me and you, passerby won’t really pay attention to you because they will think you are a stubborn girlfriend, so which way do you want it, gently walk into the car or i drag you…your choice
“you see…you haven’t change one bit and i was even thinking that you were really sorry and remorseful…you are a snake…but i will smash your head before you have another chance to hurt me, non of the above…I’m not going anywhere close to that car Kala…
“oh hahaha, you fell for that, is because I’m a good actor…i can use a Merry word and make any lady succumb to me if i want but in your Case, hmm… you like being force and i will do just that to you…
He was still talking when i heard a loud horn, we both turned and it was Victor, my heart exploded with joy, he came down and before he can walked up to us I ran to him, he asked what was going on, even Kala came to meet him, Kala stretched hand to shake him but Victor ignored his hand and face me, he asked me if i was alright,
before i could answer Kala started vomiting all the whole lies he has cooked up to him, how I was a club girl and prostituting myself to any available men how i called him to come and pick me, how he slept with me, somebody that hasn’t even seeing the colour of my pants, he kept talking Victor have to hush him to stop, victor defended me and asked him if that was all my sin or is there still more
..Kala was speechless as Victor gave him a strict warning never to come close to me again or he will have him to contend with, victor’s warning sounded like thunder in his ears and i was surprise that he wasn’t even move by everything Kala said about me but defended me instead, Kala was still standing there as Victor led me to his car and zoomed off,
I wish i can stick out my tongue to Kala as he stood by the bustop like somebody that was under shock,
God is always looking out for me.
Victor asked why i left the house without even telling him, that it was when he asked Joe, Joe told him i was just stepping out, he drove after me and parked at a little distance when he saw Kala and he has being watching me and Kala argue over something,
he said he will assign a driver to be taking me anywhere i want to go, he didn’t want to know my past sins or whatever Kala Said, all he wanted is to be there for me always, he said should always tell him anytime I’m going out so that people like Kala who are roaming everywhere won’t hurt me, he wants me to be safe all the time.
I felt so special as he drove me down to another private school instead of the normal ones i was planing to go, the vice chancellor in that school use to be his dad’s friend, victor introduced me to him as his friend and after all the introduction, forms where filled and paper signed, I was giving an admission all tuition fee paid off by Victor.
I shed tears of joy, it was a total miracle, just like that God showed up for me, he said he will get somebody who will put me through with computer i don’t need to go to computer school since I can equally learn at home, he will get me a laptop i can be using to practice on my own,
I couldn’t thank him enough, i was so happy that i hugged him immediately we got into the car, he held me in his arms for what seems like eternity, it was getting dark the road is far, it will be a long drive, but he wasn’t in a hurry and i wasn’t too,
He raised my head up and looked into my eyes before saying
“I’m in love with you Uju, so much that i can’t think straight again, I love you Uju, i don’t know how it started but it just happened, I’m sorry if I’m embarrassing you, I just can’t hold it in anymore, you make my world complete, I was so much into you that i couldn’t hold it back again, so i told mum, because i don’t want to do anything stupid, anything that mum will not be proud of…i don’t want to be found close to that thing…
I was raised better than that, i call mum and told her, I told mum last week and she was laughing at me because i poured out all the whole feeling to her, I looked like a child when i was saying it, I told her everything I felt for you, mum asked if i have told You about my feelings, when i told her no she asked me to tell you first and know if you feel the same way too,
she encouraged me go and talk to you since last week…
. so Uju, do you love me, don’t look at the riches or fame i mean my person, do you love me as person.. Because i love you so much and nothing else matters to me except my mum, my sister and you…” and even if you don’t…it will really hurt but i won’t force my love on you, I will accept whatever you say to me and will still be there for you no matter what……”
I was almost crying as few tears dropped, I couldn’t speak out i just nodded my head in affirmation, he wipe my tears with his hand and we locked lips, he kissed me as if he has being holding it for so long, releasing all the hidden emotion that has built up, when he finally loosed up we were both breathing like people running marathons,
he tried to apologize but i told him not to because deep down i have always wanted it, it was a good kiss, passionate one at that, for the first time in my life I felt so connected with a man,
he apologized anyway and said it will happen again but he will try to keep his emotions in check,
deep down i wanted it to happen again and again, my own emotions were on fire for him, but i still have to also keep my own emotions in check ,
we drove down silently for sometime before he broke the silent with a joke that made me laugh so hard, we talked and laughed and the journey back home was smooth,
We stopped at a fast food to eat before we continued our journey.
If this is the way love feels like then is so beautiful and i want to always be in the web with Victor.
© Amarh heart